Zoe was born into our family on a sunny day. She was the most beautiful little girl we had ever seen. We were so happy to have a her. Our family was complete. Zoe's first 3mos of life were amazing. She began to coo and reach out for her toys. She began laughing out loud and sucking on her hands. Although she was a little fussier than most, it was such a wonderful time in her life. As Zoe approached 3 1/2 months, she began to cry excessively and she never slept. The only thing that calmed her was to be in my arms, at all times. When she cried, she would stiffen her body so tight, it was hard to hold her. I also noticed her little hands were always clenched into tight fists. Then, Zoe started choking often during feedings. At 4 months, Zoe’s pediatrician began treating her for reflux and despite aggressive treatment, nothing seemed to work, she just kept getting worse. I took Zoe to several hospitals and despite my plea that something was wrong, I was told "some babies are just fussy." I was not convinced. Zoe began choking so much during feedings until one day, she just stopped eating and began to lose weight. Zoe was admitted to the Hospital 2/19/08. She was 5 months old. During Zoe's 4 week hospital stay, she underwent multiple torturous tests and was closely monitored by a team of nuerologists and a geneticist, and on 3/8/08 we received the diagnosis. Our world came crashing down around us. Our beautiful, precious baby girl was not expected to live past the age of 2 years. Never had our hearts been heavier. Our only option now was to try and make our little girl as comfortable as possible. Zoe faught a long, tough battle with Krabbes Disease. She was brave and she was strong. Krabbes Disease took her sight, it took her laugh, it took her smile and on January 26th, 2009 at 12:08am it took her life. We cherish every moment of the 16 months and 16 days we had with our daughter. I am thankful every day that God chose me to be her mother. Fly high and play hard sweet angel.....
On August 5, 2008 our beautiful daughter Olivia Grace blessed this world with her amazing blue eyes and unforgettable personality. She lit up the room with a flash of her smile and a wink of her lashes. Olivia was a baby you knew was undeniably special and created a spark wherever she was. The sparkle that she gave to all suddenly ended on July 19, 2009 at 11 months old. Our precious little girl left this place on earth to be in the heavenly clouds with other little ones that had passed. She received her wings too soon, but I knew, as her mother, that her legacy needed to continue. We created Tada Baby Boutiques in her honor to help other families with the tragedy and despair during a time that causes unbelievable pain. TADA Baby Boutiques began as a celebration and legacy of our Olivia Grace who gave us so much happiness and joy. I remember the day we lost her, I wasn't sure if we could go on. As one friend said, "It is a club that I never wanted you to be a member of, but here is how you can make it. My family focused our hurt and pain into the purpose and blessings that we give other families who have experienced the same grief of losing a child". TADA Baby Boutiques is committed to donating funds and love to help other families with losing a child and the cost associated with a funeral. Many families, as we too discovered, cannot afford a headstone, but want to desperately memorialize a final resting place. Our company, TADA Baby Boutiques was founded on the principles of helping other people during a time of grief Please visit www.tadababyboutiques.com to help with donating funds and support for families during these difficult times.
Parent(s) Name:
Coleen and Dallas Fossum E-Mail:
Child Name:
Zachery Taylor Fossum
City:
Wahpeton, ND USA
Birth Death Dates:
3/14/2000-3/14/2000
Cause of Death:
born to early
About my Child:
792
Thursday January 7, 2010 - 04:40:52pm
I went into early labor with Zachery on 3/13/2000. Here in the town i live they did not have all the medical treatment needed to stop my labor, so they transported me to fargo ND where i may have had a chance to stop the labor. that night was a big blurr, i apparently was in labor the whole night and zachery was born on 3/14/2000 at 5:25AM. zachery was born alive i could here his little cry, he was born three months early and had such a will to live. i was able to hold him for thirty minutes until he passed away in my arms along with my husband holding both of us very close. He was our first child born and my heart still aches for him to be here with me and my husband and our second born child. we talk freely about Zachery and visit him often. His little brother Cameron asks many questions, but understands for the most part and brings him a gift on his birthday every year. I still wish he was here everyday! If you would like to talk or ask some questions i have included my email address feel free to contact me.
Parent(s) Name:
Angela Mihalek E-Mail:
Child Name:
Krystyl Elizabeth Lass
City:
Glendale, Arizona USA
Birth Death Dates:
2/26/91 - 8/6/91
Cause of Death:
Meningococcal Septicemia
About my Child:
791
Wednesday January 6, 2010 - 09:22:59am
y precious daughter Krystyl's birth turned me into a mommy. She was so pretty, with the longest hair and oh so silly. I entered her in a baby beauty pageant 10 days before her death. She took 2nd place. Ironically, she was given a certificate declaring her 100% healthy. At 8pm oon August 5th, I wasnt feeling well so of course I took her temperature. Why? I don't know, new mom reasons, I guess. The thermometer read 103.8 in her little armpit. Adjusted that is 104.8. I told her daddy we needed to take her to urgent care. We quickly loaded her into her car seat and placed her in the pick-up between us. She had a seizure. Terrified,we hurried to urgent care. They said it was a viral infection, no big deal. We took her home and I stayed up with her, watching her rapidly decline. At 4am, August 6th, we took her to the E.R. They did blood work as well as a spinal tap. Even though she had spots of purpura (purple bruising due to leaking red blood cells) they misdiagnosed her with a viral infection. We were there for 4 1/2 hours. They said to take her to her pediatrician that day and again for a follow-up in 3 days, she'd be fine. We took her home again. She declined further. Her father and my little sister slept while I held her close, bathed her, loved her. Each touch I gave, she moaned, as though it hurt her to be touched. That afternoon we left early to see her pediatrician as she was doing so badly. Upon arriving, the receptionist noticed her rash - it was covering so much of her body by then. We were rushed into the exam room and all hell broke loose. The fire department was called, followed by an ambulance. They said she was gravely ill. We were in shock. We had just been told she would be fine. The ambulance took her across the street to the hospital where she was air-evaced to Phoenix Children's Hospital. Her father and I followed, in shock, in our truck. They worked to stabilize her, pumping her full of antibiotics and fluids. We were allowed to see her. She was so precious. They informed us that we could make the difficult choice to stop all attempts to save her if we felt the need. We said, "are you crazy? she's our baby, you have to save her!" Shortly thereafter, we were at her bedside when the vital machines started sounding. I looked up to see an image that has been imbeded in my mind since. Her heartrate was 40 beats per minute. The nurse gently pushed me to the side and began chest compressions. Seeing her press on my little daughters chest was so frightening. I looked across the bed to her daddy and said can we stop, he nodded. As the nurse did the second compression, we asked her to stop. There was no way to save her and she was so tiny (she was 5 months and eleven days old and weighed 12 pounds) I struggled with, what if we stopped too soon? What if they could have brought her back? I realized later that her body was devastated by the disease and she had no chance.
I lost Hannah in my second trimester of pregnancy. I had a slight placental abruption. After what I believe to be too many internal exams, I developed an infection in my placenta and cord. This caused pre-term labor. Hannah was too little to survive. Beyond this incredible tragedy of losing our daughter, we were also severely mistreated at the hospital. The very life of our daughter was disrespected. To read our story further and where this journey is taking us in honor of my daughter please go to my blog: hannahshonor.blogspot.com
Parent(s) Name:
Elizabeth and Ryan Hallam E-Mail:
Child Name:
Tazica Marie Hallam
City:
Indianapolis, Indiana USA
Birth Death Dates:
3/13/09-3/13/09
Cause of Death:
Water broke early
About my Child:
789
Wednesday October 28, 2009 - 12:17:15pm
My story begins on Nov 14,2009 we concived after a M/C and we had good feelings about it and the day after thanksgiving I found out we was indeed excpecting and it was a happy time even though our families was against us and we felt like on the top of the world thats where we was and then Dec. 25, 2009 came and thought we misscarried and found out we misscarried a baby and still had a baby so we was hurt but we was still happy that we still had a baby and we was going to tell her when she or he got old enough about the other baby and then my 20 week ultrasound came around and found out we only had 1/4 th the water that we should have and then went to the specialist the next day and found out my water broke and Tazica my little girl wasnt going to make it throught birth and went into the hospital that night and Had my little girl on March 13th that friday and she did survive birth she lived for 3 hours and I was rushed to the OR and we barried her 2 weeks later well had her creamated We could only afford this method
Parent(s) Name:
Sarah and Rob E-Mail:
Child Name:
Lucas David Hedberg
City:
West Chicago, IL USA
Birth Death Dates:
7-20-2006 to 8-5-2006
Cause of Death:
SIDS
About my Child:
788
Thursday October 15, 2009 - 09:19:19pm
Our swwet angel was born on July 20, 2006 and he was normal weight. Three days before he passed he saw his pediatrician who said he was healthy and said his weight was fine when he was called by GOD on that terrible Saturday morning we were devastated, then we received reports that his weight was low and he was small for his age, but yet the pediatrcian didn't tell us this. Why Not???.... Our son is greatly missed no matter how long it seems like it all just happened. If anyone wants to talk just e-mail me God bless all those families and children in God's arms. Lucas we all love you very much.
Parent(s) Name:
Nicholas nd Samantha E-Mail:
Child Name:
Rea Lynn Paoletto
City:
Fontana, CA USA
Birth Death Dates:
August 25, 2009
Cause of Death:
Cord death
About my Child:
787
Wednesday October 14, 2009 - 11:31:35am
When my husband and I found out we were having a baby girl we were so excited. We already have a son and so this going to be the perfect addition to our family. She was a kicker and mover constantly. I was always having my son and husband feel my belly because she moved so much and so strongly. Seven days before my C-section I didn't feel her move all day. I went to the hospital and they put me on the monitor and no heart beat. When I delivered her that night, she came out with the cord wrapped so tight around her in three different places, she was bruised and had very deep cuts from the cord. I miss her so much and my heart is just broken, but I know she is a precious angel now flying high with her papa in heaven. I can't wait to see her smile and wrap my arms around her. Your brother, your daddy and I love you baby Rea!
Parent(s) Name:
Dawn & Tommy E-Mail:
Child Name:
Donavin Daniel Joel Badger
Birth Death Dates:
September 10, 2009
Cause of Death:
Epstein's Anomaly
About my Child:
786
Saturday September 26, 2009 - 09:41:22am
We were overjoyed when we found out that we were going to be having a baby boy. We anxiously awaited Donavin's arrival. At 18 weeks, we found out that he had a rare congenital heart condition called Epstein's Anomaly. We were followed monthly by the fetal cardiology center and were given the impression that he may need some interventions after birth. My OB was in the process of setting up an induction date so that the proper peds team could be in place for our angels arrival. On sept 10th, I realized that I hadn't felt Donavin move all day. At around 6pm, I called my OB and they told me to go to the hospital right away to be placed on the monitor. Donavin had a heartbeat but wasn't moving. They decided to perform an emergency C-section. Donavin was born asleep at 9:56pm that night. All I can remember is being on the operating table listening to the doctors and nurses trying to resuscitate my baby. No words can express how much my fiance' and I miss our angel. He can never be replaced. *Mommy and Daddy love you Donavin*
Parent(s) Name:
Kellilin E-Mail:
Child Name:
Lilian "Morgann" Clanton
City:
Sandpoint, ID USA
Birth Death Dates:
10/23/97- 01/17/01
Cause of Death:
Car Accident
About my Child:
785
Thursday September 24, 2009 - 06:46:57pm
My daughter was 3. She was my first child, a beautiful little red head with bright blue eyes. She was my whole world. I had taken her on vacation to WA state to see her grandparents. Her Grandpa and I had wanted to take her to mountain to see snow. On the way to the ski resort we were stopped at a traffic light, although the light turned green, the 3 1/2 ton semi behind us was not paying attention that traffic was not moving. He hit our car going at least 45 miles per hour. The impact of the crash cracked her skull in 2 spots. She died instantly. The paramedics were able to bring her body back for 2 days, but she never regained consciouness. Like all of you know the loss of a child is the worst tragedy on earth. The driver of the semi was later found to be hung-over and on pot. She was the most amazing 3yr old little girl ever. She changed my life the second she was born and changed it again the second she left me. She would have been 12 yrs old this October. By the grace of God only, I had a daughter 9 months after her death, the night before what would have been her 4th birthday.
Parent(s) Name:
Meghan E-Mail:
Child Name:
Jacob Matthew
City:
Mesa, AZ
Birth Death Dates:
July 28, 2005-September 15, 2005
Cause of Death:
SIDS
About my Child:
784
Thursday September 24, 2009 - 06:21:50pm
My son Jacob was born a week late, he was my first and only child. I was induced and once labor started, he was out in about 4 hours. Being a single mother was definitely a struggle, but he was an absolute angel. He hardly ever cried and was absolutely the most beautiful thing I have ever seen. The very first day I took him to his babysitter I received a call about 2 hours after dropping him off. My stomach dropped when the phone rang. Somehow I knew what was coming. I raced to the hospital and as soon as I looked into his eyes I realized he was no longer in his physical body. We still held out hope and for the next 48 hours our family and friends were able to fly out to say goodbye. I guess I'm thankful for having those 2 days because most SIDS babies are already gone by the time they are found. I was finally forced to make the hardest decision of my life which was to turn off the machines and let my son slip away in my arms. I miss Jacob every day and think of him often. I am forever grateful for the time I had with him and being able to see his beautiful smile. I know my little angel is watching over me forever.
Parent(s) Name:
Megan Hughes & Pedro Quadros E-Mail:
Child Name:
Miguel Lyle Hughes-Quadros
City:
oakdale, ca united states
Birth Death Dates:
June 4th 2009 - June 4th 2009
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
783
Saturday August 29, 2009 - 08:11:42pm
I was 40 weeks and 4 days along when I went into labor with my beautiful baby boy. I was in the labor and delivery room when the doctor came in and broke my water and it was a dark meconium. So they decided to have an emergency C-section and from the time they were transferring me from one bed to the other he had passed.
Parent(s) Name:
Colleen Casey E-Mail:
Child Name:
Alexander Terrance Casey
City:
Neptune, NJ USA
Birth Death Dates:
May 30, 2009
Cause of Death:
Idiopath Arterial Calcification
About my Child:
782
Monday August 10, 2009 - 05:26:37pm
Since the end of my second trimester doctors told me that our son, ALexander was very sick. He had a condition called Idiopathic Arterial Calcification. It's extremely rare with only 160 repoted cases. The prognosis was poor. So poor, that there was a good chance he wouldn't make it to birth. At 34 weeks I gave birth to Alexander Terrance. He weighed 8lb. 9oz. He looked so healthy. But inside he wasn't. His arteries were becomming thick and covered with calcium. The nurses placed his little soft warm body in my arms. It felt so wonderful. I lived for eight whole hours. Gradually, his complection began to get more purple until I felt his breathing begin to shallow out. I didn't want to let him go. Ic ouldn't believe my baby was gone. Even though he beat the odds of surving to birth, it still wasn't long enough for me.
Parent(s) Name:
Heidi and John Thompson E-Mail:
Child Name:
Aubrey Ann Thompson
Birth Death Dates:
7/9/08-6/26/09
Cause of Death:
or an infection
About my Child:
781
Tuesday July 28, 2009 - 06:26:08am
Aubrey was our 5th child and 2nd girl. We had not planded to have her but as soon as we knew we were going to have her we wanted and loved her. We are still waiting for test results so we do not know what she died from. We were told it was either SIDS or an infection. My sweet Aubrey was not sick and had always been very healthy. She had pretty curly golden hair and big blue eye and a smile that all fell in love with. I put her to bed June 25th 2009 and never saw her alive again. She would have been 1 on July 9th 2009. She never walked on her own but I knew she was going to soon but she never got the chance. We love and miss her so much. She was truly an Angel.
Parent(s) Name:
Shawn and Sarah E-Mail:
Child Name:
Cassandra
Birth Death Dates:
03-26-09
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
780
Wednesday July 1, 2009 - 08:42:37pm
My beautiful Cassandra was a feisty baby. Always kicking and showing she was there inside me. I complained of abdominal pain and other symptoms for weeks. I went to labor and delivery constantly the last month and more of my pregnancy and I was dismissed as bone pain. I begged to get her out so they tested her lungs and she was not ready so would not take her. One day before they finally were going to take her out(six days after I wanted her but they would not take her because of her lungs) I went in for decreased movement. They dismissed me even though they did tests and she did not respond and her heartrate was low. I was left on the monitor after hours until she passed. I am so sad and just don't know what to do. She was 38 weeks and 6 days. I begged and knew something was wrong but they ignored me. I can't find many, if any, people in my type of situation. When they took her out they found she had nothing wrong with her physically but I had a uterine infection the whole time from missed infection or/and leaking fluid they also missed. She had gotten a placenta infection along with her amonitic fluid was infected which she swallowed and caused her to not be able to fight anymore after getting pneumnia from the fluid. Please contact me if you have anything at all similar as i really need someone to talk to that has been in any sitation the same. I am so lost. I have a son but she was going to the first girl in the family for grandkids and she was our baby girl.
Parent(s) Name:
Cynthia & Garrett Reed E-Mail:
Child Name:
Tyler Haden Reed
City:
Plano, Tx USA
Birth Death Dates:
5/29/09 - 6/6/09
Cause of Death:
Ebstein's Anomaly (Rare Heart Defect)
About my Child:
779
Saturday June 20, 2009 - 03:41:42pm
At every doctor apointment we were told that our son was extremely healthy and had a strong heart. I was 25 weeks when I had an emergency c-section. The doctors found the our little boy had Ebstein's. A 1 in a 20,000 chance of getting and MY baby had to be the 1. The doctors said Tyler probably wouldn't make it through the night but the proved them wrong; our little soldier fought for 8 days. On June 6, 2009 we had to take our almost Angel off the machines so he would not suffer any longer. Once the machines were off he again fought for 15 minutes. Tyler was only here for 8 days but he touched so many lives. My little man will always be in our hearts and never be forgotten. I love and miss my Agel so much. For more info or just to talk, please feel free to contact me.
Eric defyed all odds, he was a gift and a miracle. He fought from day one and died not as a victim but as a hero. My heart still bleeds from grief and missing my very handsome man. Eric's Challenges and Hick-ups Along the Way:~Severe Reflux, although had a Nissan fundleplication that has cured this problem, ~Fed via Mic-Key feeding tube through Kangaroo pump, ~Developmentaly Delayed~Recurrent Aspiration Pneumonias~Chronic Hypoxemia~Irregular Breathing Patterens, & Periodic Breathing~Blunted response to decreasedoxygen saturation~Autonimic & Central Nervous System abnormalities~Mild obstructive Apneas ~Lived Chronically on oxygen,~Received a port a cath to make drug administration easier, and Pain free. ~Down Syndrome ~West Syndrome (a rare form of Epilepsy)~Myoclonic Seizures ~Hypothyroidism, ~Hypotonic,~Hypersecretory Asthma,~Irregular Abnormal Central Breathing~Eric was considered Palliative for 15 months before being released to return home to Jesus.. We thought someone forgot to tell him he is so sick because he lived each day to the fullest! And above all is our HERO!
Parent(s) Name:
Kharim and Sheri Strayhorn E-Mail:
Child Name:
Dante Kharim Strayhorn
City:
Nixa, MO
Birth Death Dates:
07-31-2008 to 8-13-2008
Cause of Death:
NEC
About my Child:
777
Tuesday May 5, 2009 - 12:19:07pm
Our Dante was born 10 weeks early, but ready for the world nonetheless. He was called home unexpectedly and waits for his Meme and Yaya to come play with him. He has brothers and a sister here who miss him very much, and a new baby brother on the way, which I am sure Dante has already blessed. We miss you every day, and we can't wait to be with you again, baby boy.
Parent(s) Name:
Brigette and Layne Rushworth E-Mail:
Child Name:
Kael David Rushworth
City:
taylorsville, utah united states
Birth Death Dates:
04/12/08 to 10/04/08
Cause of Death:
undiagnosed neuromuscular condition
About my Child:
776
Tuesday April 14, 2009 - 09:41:00am
Our sweet baby boy Kael passed away Oct 4, 2008. He was born 5 1/2 weeks early and was diagnosed with some sort of neuro-muscular condition. Kael spent the first 12 weeks of his life in the NICU half of that at St. Marks the other half at Primary Childrens Medical Center. He was sent home with his diagnosis undiagnosed after many tests all which came back with no anwsers or solutions. We were lucky enough for Kael to come home for 2 days which there after he had to return back to PCMC due to having pneumonia. He was back in the hospital for 4 weeks he then returned home for a very short 24 hours and had to go back with pneumonia and a stomach virus. Kael stayed this time for 7 days. We were then lucky enough to have him home for 3 weeks in which time we were able to get his pictures done professionally and have him blessed. We were also able to take him to the BYU game on Oct 3 the night before he passed. We had a wonderful time as a family that night will forever be in my mind. Kael passed away that night in his sleep which was a huge suprise for us come Saturday morning only 5 hours earlier we had fed Kael put him in bed and heard him making his noises before he drifted to a sleep he would not wake up from. What I wouldnt give to hold him just one last time. Saturday was one of the hardest days in my life. I had to hold my precious son no longer living in my arms for the last time in our home and then hand him over to the hands of the mortician. Due to Kaels condition they just had our pediatrition call the time of death and did not perfrom an autopsy due to his medical history. We had the funeral arrangements made that day and buried Kael in Wednesday Oct. 8th. It was so hard explaining to my 3 1/2 and 2 year old why Kael was in the bed not able to move and closing the lid to his casket. They still ask daily if Kael is coming back from heaven yet and if he is better. I am forevere greatful for the short time we had to spend with Kael but cant help but wonder now why now.... after we thought Kael was getting stronger as he was learning to interact a bit and smile at our voices why would god take him from us now. I have been very greatful for such a supporting husband who has carried me through this. If not for him I dont know where I would be. Each night he tells me that Kael is at peace now and no longer in pain. I just wish I would have been more prepared. I know that I had to go through the motions of the funeral etc. but am still not sure the reality of all of this has hit. I am just taking it a day at a time. Some days are easier than others I try to avoid the bad days as much as possible since I still have 2 other little ones to worry about and still raise right. Thank you again for this chance to share.
Parent(s) Name:
Le'Vaughn E-Mail:
Child Name:
Quale' Jelani (mighty, strong)
Birth Death Dates:
July 2, 2008 - September 25, 2008
Cause of Death:
smothered in a daycare
About my Child:
775
Saturday April 11, 2009 - 06:47:19pm
Quale' jelani was my angel that was sent down from heaven to me for a short time. I didn't know that September 25 would be the last day I would kiss, feed, bathe, hug, smile at, smell, or caress my baby. i just thatnk God for the short time i did have with him. Each day is a struggle. Every little thing makes me think of my beloved son. I believe that God makes no mistakes and I will hold my son in my arms again! I pray for every family that has their own angel in heaven! i pray that our loving God gives you PEACE, LOVE, AND UNDERSTANDING! my baby is in the arms of the almighty. Our babies will never know what hurt,lonliness, hunger, pain, sadness or anything of that sort feels like. There is only love where our babies are! Only Love!
