Wyatt was born heathy as a horse Feb. 4, 2008...a day that is still so new in my mind. I was lucky enough to get to spend 3 wonderful months with him. Time that i can never have back. Wyatt never had so much as a fever. No complications during pregnancy, birth, life. He was perfect. I can't understand what happened. I finally went back to work. On the last day of the first week of him being at childcare...i got the dreaded call from the fire department. They told me to get over there because he wasn't "feeling well". Words that will forever haunt me. He was gone...and i didnt even get to say goodbye. The only thing that gets me through the days is knowing that Wyatt knew i loved him with all my heart. He was my world. And i made sure everyday i gave him a million kisses and hugs...never expecting them to be the last ones. My final words to my son were "i love you my baby", "Mommy will se you after work" as i kissed his cheeks and walked out the door. I was so excited to celebrate my first mothers day that weekend with my son and his dad. Instead i spent my mothers day planning arrangements to bury my son. I just wanted to be the best mom that i could and give him the world. It hard to imagine my world without him. If i could give my life so that no person ever has to feel like this again i would without hesitation. Or if i thought it would bring back just one of our children, i would. Although i've never met anyone who has lost a child...i feel such a strong connection with you all. I wish i could hug you and cry with you...cause i know the crying never stops. I miss you my baby. I think about you every second of every day. A part of me died with you that day. And a part of me lives inside all of you read this and are going through the same thing. Hugs and kisses for you all.
Parent(s) Name:
Tiffany and Brandon McClure E-Mail:
Child Name:
Aidean Douglas McClure
City:
Mtn.Home, Idaho USA
Birth Death Dates:
Born 5/26/08 Died 5/26/08
Cause of Death:
Lung and Bladder Failuer
About my Child:
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Wednesday June 18, 2008 - 03:35:41am
Aidean was not expected to survive past birth. He was born at 7 months. He was born while we were on vacation in Kingman AZ. He was 5lbs 2.6oz and 16". He was perfect. I miss him so much. I got to hold him while he passed. The wonderfull medical staff did all they could but at 4:09 am he passed away after living an hour and 50 minutes. My husband and I miss him terribly. This is the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I'm terrified to ever try to have a child again. We are waiting at least two years before we even attempt it.
Parent(s) Name:
Ed and Nancy E-Mail:
Child Name:
Laura Lynn Rose
City:
Stockton, CA USA
Birth Death Dates:
October 16, 1995 to March 22, 2007
Cause of Death:
Cerebral Arteriovenous Malformation
About my Child:
748
Tuesday June 17, 2008 - 06:42:50pm
Laura was our last child, it took me 15 years to convince my husband to have one more. When we decided to go ahead and have the third child I had a miscarriage, then a year later Laura was born healthy and perfect, I thought we had beat the odds. Laura did ballet and played the piano. She was bright in school and when she reached the grades where honor roll was recognized she earned high honors every quarter till her death. She loved to read and swim. Our lives were perfect. Then Laura had a very bad headache, her classmates told me Laura was playing tag then stopped, put her hands to her head and cried her head hurt. I picked Laura up from school and took her home. An hour and half later I was calling 911. Laura was placed on lifesupport and mediflighted to a trama one hospital in our area. That was January 11, 2007. Laura never came out of her coma state. After two and half months of fighting to save her life, we had to make the decision to let Laura go home to God. It was the worst decision for us but the best decision for Laura. Each night I use to pray to wake up from this nightmare and find Laura happy and healthy, now I pray not to wake-up and am angry when I do. I then climb out of bed and go through the motions of the day, only to end the day with my prayer to not wake up tomorrow. I miss my baby girl.
Parent(s) Name:
Mandy Welch E-Mail:
Child Name:
Wyatt Oliver
City:
Lakebay, WA USA
Birth Death Dates:
04/14/2008-05/02/2008
Cause of Death:
DiGeorge's Syndrome
About my Child:
747
Thursday May 29, 2008 - 10:40:49am
We were diagnosed at 18 weeks with Truncas Arteriosis, a heart defect which would need open heart surgery for our Baby Boy.We were optimistic and knew he'd be ok. Later Wyatt was diagnosised with DiGeorge's Syndrome, a chromisone deficancy. But again, we kept our faith strong and knew Wyatt would be ok. Wyatt was born perfect and pink on 4/14 weighing 7.6lbs and 20.25" long. They took him to the NICU where we would spend the next 2 weeks prior to the heart surgery. On 4/29 they took my Wyatt for surgery. They came out too us 7 hrs. later and told us they couldn't get him off the heart and lung machine.They didn't know why his lungs weren't working correctly, and didn't know what to do! But miracles happen, and they got him off the machine! We spent the next 2 days at his bed side, waithing for him to get better, and he did. They took him off the pace maker and were starting to lower his meds. On 5/1 they changed out a catheder and punctured his intestines. Wyatt went through an emergency surgery, where they got him set up for a calostami bag. They told us if he stayed the same or got better, he might have a chance, but if he got worse, he wouldn't make it.At 9:30pm they called me to go back to the room.He was septic and they were trying to stabalize him. My Wyatt passed away in my arms with all of his family around him. We all got to sing his favorite song The ants go marching in to him and kiss him and say good-bye to him. Wyatt was my 4th child and my first with any complications. I wouldn't change a thing that happened with him.Even when the Dr.'s kept telling us we should terminate! The only thing I would do differently would be to have less stressful Dr's apts.
Parent(s) Name:
Erika Stoks E-Mail:
About my Child:
746
Monday May 26, 2008 - 06:45:43pm
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Parent(s) Name:
Shane and Ginna Simpson E-Mail:
Child Name:
Brecken Reed Simpson
City:
Amarillo, TX USA
Birth Death Dates:
04/12/2008
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
745
Friday May 2, 2008 - 01:35:56pm
Shane and I lost Brecken at 35 weeks. I went in on April 10th to the doctor by myself for a regular checkup. I'm always joking around with the nurse and she couldn't find the heartbeat. The doctor looked as well but was unable to find it. They took me in to an ultrasound and I saw it. His little heart was not beating. They called my husband who was out of town, and he got here immediately. I had Brecken on April 12 at 4:58am. He was perfect 4lbs. 7oz. They say that I had a slow leak of amniotic fluid. We miss you so much, only time will heal our hearts!
Parent(s) Name:
Michelle and James Semenko
Child Name:
Mischa Lynn Semenko
City:
Youngtown, az USA
Birth Death Dates:
birthdate 09/21/2007 deceased 02/22/2008
Cause of Death:
complications of cardiomyapathy
About my Child:
744
Monday April 21, 2008 - 02:48:37pm
Mischa was the strongest person I have ever know. I was carrying twins and at 28 weeks the doctors told me there was a problem with twin B's heart. It was enlarged. At 32weeks my twins Austin and Mischa were born due to complications of hellp and preeclemsia. Austin (twin A) was released after 2 weeks in the NICU and Mischa was released after 7weeks. She was in longer because she was diagnosed with idiopathic cardiomyapathy. She was released on medications to mantain her heart function. She was home for two wonderful months and New Years day she began sweating. This is a sign of cardiac failure! I called her cardiologist and was told to bring her to the ER. There she was addmitted to the PICU. After some testing it showed that her heart was only functioning @ 3% (normal babies are at 68%!)It was decieded that she would be transfered to UMC medical center and await a heart transplant. Unfortuanatly she became worse and the docs decided to place a berlin heart in her. It was supposed to be a bridge to transplant, but could also be used for a bridge to recovery if the cardiomyapathy was virally caused. Surprisingly Mischa's heart improved!! then the day before the device was to be taken out all hell broke loose. She had developed a blood clot in her bowels. The surgeons removed 75% of the small and 30% of the large and told my husband and I she would be surprised if she made it through the night. After the longest night of my life, the surgeons took her back into surg. to see if the remaining tissue survived. Unfortuanatly, the doctors said they did all they could, but the tissue had died. Our precious little bright eyed miss pincess was gone forever.
Parent(s) Name:
Sandra & Francis E-Mail:
Child Name:
Olwethu
City:
S.A, S.a South Africa
Birth Death Dates:
03 May 2007
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
743
Saturday April 19, 2008 - 06:43:10am
My handsome baby, he was very active inside my tummy, I would talk to him and his father would say I am crazy talking to my baby inside my tummy. But that all we got to share, it been a year now but I miss him like crazy everyday. My fiance want us to try again but I have a fear that I might be hurt again my boy was my first and I can't bear another loss, I thought I have let go of him but the mansion of another child I don't know what just happens with me I feel like I would be betraying my love for my first child. Is this craze
Parent(s) Name:
Julia and Justin E-Mail:
Child Name:
Logan Joseph Daniel Locatis
City:
Lake Havasu City, AZ
Birth Death Dates:
11-03-07
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
742
Tuesday April 8, 2008 - 09:30:18pm
Our sweet baby. He was always very active while he was in mommmy's tummy. We spent many nights talking about what he would look and be like. We couldn't wait to meet him. One day after his due date mommy began to have contractions. He moved a few times that day but not as much as normal. By the time that contractions were close enough we went to the hospital and he was already gone to a better place. May God continue to hold you in his arms. I hope you know how much Mommy and Daddy love and miss you. Until we meet again. xoxoxoxoxo
corrina was boron at 27 weeks early she would of been me and my husband first daughter her cord was tied in a knot that is what caused us to lose are baby girl i miss her so much and her three brothers ask about her all the time so i know they miss her they were so excited when they found out they were going to have a baby sister and to lose her brooke all of are hearts we will for ever miss and love her
Parent(s) Name:
Aaron and Jenevra Watkins E-Mail:
Child Name:
Arianna Rose
City:
Spokane, Wa
Birth Death Dates:
March 05, 2008
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
740
Wednesday March 12, 2008 - 01:28:16pm
We will always miss you my baby girl. You will always be in our hearts, our tiny angel. Mommy misses you and always will..... I forgot that you can find me on myspace.....
Parent(s) Name:
Aaron & Jenevra Watkins E-Mail:
Child Name:
Arianna Rose Watkins
City:
Spokane, Wa
Birth Death Dates:
March 05, 2008
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
739
Wednesday March 12, 2008 - 01:16:07pm
Tuesday morning I woke up feeling different. Not really knowing what the feeling was except it was just different. Arianna was not greeting me with her usual pokes and rolls in the morning when I was waking up she was usually just settling down. But that morning there was nothing. No movement. I was 37 weeks along and so I thought Im not going to freak out and get me or my husband worried. Maybe she was just getting ready to come out. But by noon I was scared I felt nothing even when I would push on her or try to irritate her so she would push back. I called my doctor and they told me to lie down for an hour and drink or eat something sweet. I did and still nothing. I showed up at the doctors office and as soon as they strapped the monitors on me I know something was wrong when the nurse had tears in her eyes. They did a dopplar and still nothing and the nurse couldnt even hold the tears back. Thats when I looked at my husband and just started crying. They did a ultra sound to confirm there was no heart beat and they sent us home to try to get some sleep. That next morning at 5:30 am I was at the hospital getting prepped for my c-section. We were calm but so scared of the unknown. At first I wanted to be put completely under and I didnt want to see the baby, but as they started explaining everything to me that was about to happen I changed me mind and I know now that I would have regreted it sooo much if I wasnt able to see her or hold her. I would have never forgave myself. Within 10 minutes she was out and they showed her to us breifly. We lost it. She was beautiful. They braught her to us in the recovery room, they had already cleaned her up and dressed her. They also made a mold of her foot and had taken some pictures of her. She was so perfect. Nothing was wrong with her at all. She weighed 6lbs 15 oz and was 19 inches long. I undressed her and looked at every little bit of her. We were all so heart broken. Just 2 days before she was fine. It broke my heart to see my husband, he was so excited to have a little girl. And so was I. I held her for almost 3 hours just waiting for her to take a breathe or cry. But nothing. This is the hardest thing we have ever had to go through.
Parent(s) Name:
Bronwyn & Scott
Child Name:
Samuel Thomas
City:
Hermosa Beach, CA USA
Birth Death Dates:
02/03/2008 - 02/10/2008
Cause of Death:
ischemic brain injury
About my Child:
738
Sunday March 9, 2008 - 02:21:04pm
After a perfect, textbook pregnancy, our son, Samuel Thomas was born on February 3rd, 2008. Sam only spent one week with us, but in that week his strength, courage, beauty and love were inspirational. Sam passed away peacefully in my arms February 10th, 2008. He was the toughest little guy we've ever seen. He even opened his eyes several times so that he could see his family in his last two days. We are lucky that we had the chance to meet him and we are better people for it. He will always be our little angel. Sam was a perfectly healthy baby until the very end of my pregnancy. In the two weeks prior to delivery, an event happened in the placenta. It was likely a blood clot, but we are not 100% sure. This event caused a temporary lack of flow through the umbilical cord, giving Sam distress and causing him to expel lots and lots of meconium (poop). Lacking nutrients and oxygen from the cord, Sam gasped and inhaled a tremendous amount of the meconium. This lack of flow may have also caused some neurological damage. Then the event passed and Sam physically recovered to a certain degree - other than all of that meconium sitting in his lungs. Non-stress tests on the 2nd and 5th days prior to delivery showed normal activity in Sam and therefore gave no cause for alarm. Upon delivery, the cord was cut and Sam was forced to breathe on his own. That's when a second event took place. His lungs were saturated with meconium and he could not breathe. It took hours and hours of precious time to normalize the oxygen flow. At that point, the neurological damage was already done. We just didn't know it yet. It took five days of physical recovery before Sam was healthy enough to move to the MRI machine. That's when we received the worst news possible. The diagnosis given was that Sam would have moderate to severe neurological damage for the rest of his life. This meant a best case scenario of an IQ of 50. As a point of reference, people with Down's Syndrome have an IQ around 60. The difference between 50 and 60 is quite significant at that part of the IQ scale. And 50 was the BEST case scenario. So we were tasked with a decision that we can only pray none of you ever has to face. He was a beautiful boy and a healthy boy. If not for the blood clot(s) that started this domino effect he would be with us today, developing like every other healthy child.
Parent(s) Name:
Kathryn E-Mail:
Child Name:
Madison Joy Matthews
City:
Springfield, Missouri USA
Birth Death Dates:
July 30, 2007
Cause of Death:
Stillbirth
About my Child:
737
Sunday February 24, 2008 - 03:24:10pm
Madison was born still on 7-30-07. She was, and still is, perfect. 6lbs 9oz 19 1/2 inches long. We had the perfect pregnancy. I cherish every moment that Madison and I were able to spend together. She is my only child. She was a miracle sent from heaven and to heaven she returned, but with her went a huge piece of me and my heart. Mommy misses you.
Hailey was lost on 11/24/07 at 23 weeks of pregnancy to hydrops fetalis. The doctors were unable to determine the cause of the hydrops. In honor of hailey we have set up a website for her. Please visit her site at: www.hailey-molloy.virtual-memorials.com
Brooklynn Rose was born on Febuary 8th, 2008 at 7:03pm at Good Samaritan Hospital. She was 2lbs 9oz and 13 inches long. With her mommy's dark, thick brown hair and nose and her daddy's blue eyes and mouth, Brooklynn was the most perfect, beautiful baby girl anyone could ever ask for. Though she was very sick, she never gave up the fight. Battling with a heart mermer and a valve that shouldnt be working, a hemerage on both sides of her little brain, a severe blood infection, and dieing intestines... she kept pushing. Chances of survival... less than 1%. My beautiful little girl brought so much joy into my life those 11 1/2 days. As time went on, her body got more tired and weak. And I could clearly see my daughter was in pain and was suffering. On Febuary 19th, 2008 at 6:56am I recieved a phone call at the Ronald McDonald house. It was her doctor. Her blood tests came back and she had a severe blood infection that was killing her intestines. And would eventually kill her. That morning after I got off the phone with her doctor, I knew my daughter had suffered enough and I couldn't bare to see her in any more pain... I had to make the most hard, painful, selfless decission I will EVER have to make. I called her daddy and told him the news. Within 2 hours he was by her bedside next to me. The nurses came in pick-up our little girl still hooked up to the machines, let us hold her for the very first time, kiss her and tell her just how much we love her. And said our good-byes. And at 12:52pm, we had paged her doctor... it was time. The doctors and nurses came into her room, and with my baby in my arms they took off all of her wires, IVs, and oxygen tube. Finally my daughter was free of any machine. Her little body was strong enough to go 22mintues before finally giving up. At 1:14pm, my baby girl was gone. She was no longer in pain. She no longer had to suffer. Brooklynn Rose had such an impact on my life. And I miss her so much already and I know I always will. She is my one and only daughter. And I am thankful for every seconds of her life. She will always be a part of my and her brothers life. It hurts really bad. I just want to hold my daughter one last time and tell her how much I love her!
On 9/26/07, we learned during a routine 20 week ultrasound that our baby had died. This was the worst news...ever. I was admitted to the hospital and induced. At 12:10am on 9/28/07, our son, Noah, slipped from my body without a single push. The umbilcal cord was wrapped tightly three times around his tiny neck. I was 19 weeks and 6 days. We just celebrated his little life on his EDD 2/16/08 with a balloon release while vacationing in FL. Please visit his website to learn more about Noah and how he has touched our lives.
I had suffered an early m/c (unknown cause) in April of last year, so when I found out in August that I was pg again, my husband and I were thrilled. The whole first trimester was uneventful- notwithstanding preexisting hypertension. Until week 12, I was nervous everyday that I would lose this baby too. At week 20 we had a Lev II ultrasound after a positive AFP for Down's. We went to the ultrasound, and were told that our baby was fine--and was a little girl!! Over the next 3 weeks, my world came to a screeching halt. Ultimately, I developed severe PE/HELLP syndrome, and was forced to have to deliver my little angel-girl at 23w 3d. It was a foreign concept to have to choose myself over my own child but I had no choice. When she was born, she was PERFECT--the epitome of perfection. The doctors were able to get a ventilator tube in (which we were orginally told was not possible, but that they would try) and I had convinced myself at that moment that everything would be alright; that our little girl might just make it. Unfortunately, her condition never improved past birth. She was bleeding so much they couldn't keep up, her blood sugars were always over 400 and even with insulin they couldn't stabilize, her kidneys failed...so on the morning of Jan. 10, I knew that there was only one answer: I hadn't almost given my life for her to suffer to live- and there were no guarantees. Now, today, it's been a month since we said goodbye and I am in agony every day. They tell me that it is unadvisable to TTC again, and I am so angry that this could be the end for me. I am only 30. It doesn't seem fair. Please feel free to visit myspace and add me to your friends list. Please include your name and where you got my name from or I will deny you. Thanks.
Parent(s) Name:
Cara Molloy E-Mail:
Child Name:
Hailey Maddison
City:
orlando, florida united states
Birth Death Dates:
11/24/07
Cause of Death:
Hyrops Fetalis
About my Child:
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Saturday January 5, 2008 - 02:13:59pm
When I went for an ultrasound at 19 1/2 weeks we discovered that Hailey had pleural effusion. It quickly developed into hydrops fetalis and we lost her on 11/24/07 at 23 weeks. We still do not know the cause of the hydrops and are awaiting results of testing to hopefully determine the cause.
